It's english now.

So yep. It's english now. Feels quite strange to write in foreign language. And my head has filled with emptiness because of the chance of languages. Heh.

Soooooooo.. today. Nothing interesting. I was hanging on city center earlier today. Drunk cup of coffee on some café. And then I go to library and there I came at home.

M called later afternoon about our confused relationship. We talk hour and half. But anything didn't get clearier. I don't understand why he keep in touch with me if he hates me. (He had said that he hates me.) So yeah.. quite confusing.

I sitting here and listening music. Loneliness stalking me on corners of my room. Silence would be worser thing, thought.
I have ruined my life. And myself. But.. here we come, slowly, but coming still. I lift myself up from this shitty thing that I have called my life. It takes time, but I do it.

As I say, my head is empty. So, this is quite short entry. I might need accustom this before I could write anything depth.